Month: August 2021


Confession time: I get angry too easily. It usually stems from things or situations that overwhelm me, freak me out, are out of my control, or cause me to be afraid. I lash out and react very poorly. I absolutely hate it. I hate that my first reaction is anger. I hate when I blow up at my kids. I hate when it controls me. 

I have to admit, I was worse before my marriage broke down in 2012. That was one of the major pitfalls to my marriage falling apart. Anger was my generational curse and the sin that controlled me. However, after God restored my marriage, He gave me such a different perspective toward my husband and marriage, I didn’t struggle with anger toward him anymore. Sure, we got angry at each other like all married couples, yet it didn’t control me. Again, I say God changed me on a molecular level in 2012. However, with the advent of 4 small kids and so much chaos that ensues in our house, that anger is trying to rear its ugly head again and, honestly, I don’t want my kids to learn that behavior. I want to teach and exemplify a better way.

So, I took it to the Lord. I studied every verse I could find about anger, malice, wrath…even scriptures regarding the tongue. Then, all of a sudden, my fervor regarding the study of anger ceased. I asked God why, and He led me in a different direction: Meekness. 

It began with this verse:

Mt 11:29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest for your souls.

I could use some rest for my soul. So I need to be like Jesus to get that rest, and He calls Himself meek. So I looked it up. Guess what? Meekness is nothing like what I imagined in my mind. I’m gonna quote the life-changing commentary I found from Blue Letter Bible:

“Meekness toward God is that disposition of spirit in which we accept His dealings with us as good, and therefore, without disputing or resisting. In the OT, the meek are those wholly relying on God rather than their own strength to defend against injustice. Thus, meekness toward evil people means knowing God is permitting the injuries they inflict, that He is using them to purify His elect, and that He will deliver His elect in His time. Meekness is the opposite to self-assertiveness and self-interest. It stems from trust in God’s goodness and control over the situation. The meek is not concerned with self at all. This is a work of the Holy Spirit, not of the human will.”

I pictured meekness as passivity, a weakness, letting others walk all over you…things I don’t do or allow, that’s never been my nature. But do you realize how much strength it takes to shut up and just accept the injustices done to you? What about the power it takes to choose to submit to the bad things that happen to you, rather than fight against them? God pointed out that my anger was simply a symptom of a lack of meekness. I believe that all things that happen to us, both good AND bad have to be allowed by God. My belief is in His sovereignty…nothing is out of His control at any time. I also believe that everything He allows works together for our good. But, if I truly believe this, why do I rise up against someone who wrongs me? Why do I get angry when things get out of my control? I have the wrong perspective. The person who wrongs me is not my enemy…God allowed it to happen. The air conditioner that breaks down is out of my control, but God is using it to show me His provision. Time and time again, God has shown Himself to me through very distressing situations…so why get angry when they first occur? 

Jesus is meek, because He submitted to His Father’s will. He suffered greatly, knowing it was for good. Because He suffered, we can come to the Father. We, too, must submit to the Father’s will…whatever it may be in our individual lives. It truly is for our good. Meekness is submission to God’s will/way/plans. True meekness eradicates anger, depression, fear, etc. These are all symptoms of not fully trusting or believing in God, His plan, and control over our lives. I may believe in God’s sovereignty, but now I’ve got to live it!

The good news is before I began my study and after pleading with the Lord about it, He promised me victory! So I know God is gonna change my DNA again. This time He’s gonna make me meek and eradicate all that anger, depression, and fear. I no longer have to get angry when things don’t go my way. I won’t yell at my kids. I will submit to God that everything that happens to us has to pass through His hands first…so it’s gonna be ok, He’s got plans!

I’m just gonna post my study notes below for references:

God will remove my anger:

He holds victory in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones. Then you will understand what is right and just and fair – every good path. (Pro 2:7-9)

May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the LORD grant all your requests. Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. (Ps 20:4-7)

Meekness like Christ:

Mt 11:29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest for your souls.

Mt 21:5 Our King was meek

Jo 13:15 For I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you.

1 Jo 2:6 He who says he abides in Him ought to himself also to walk just as He walked.

Phil 2:5,8 Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus…humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death

1 Pet 2:21 For to this you were called, because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us  an example, that you should follow His steps

Commands of Meekness:

Zeph 2:3 Seek ye the Lord, all ye meek of the earth, which have wrought His judgment; seek righteousness, seek meekness: it may be ye shall be hid in the day of the Lord’s anger.

Eph 4:2 Walk in your calling with lowliness and meekness

Col 3:12 put on meekness

1 Tim 6:11 follow after meekness

2 Tim 2:25 instruct in meekness

Titus 3:2 Show meekness to all men

1 Pet 3:15 give reason of the hope that lies within you with meekness

Gal 5:23 meekness is a fruit of the Spirit

Promises for Meek: Provision, Guidance, Protection, & Justice

Ps 22:26 The meek shall eat & be satisfied: they shall praise the Lord that seek Him: your heart shall live forever.

Ps 25:9 The meek will He guide in judgment: & the meek will He teach His way.

Ps 147:6 The Lord lifts up the meek

Is 11:4 But with righteousness shall he judge the poor, and reprove with equity for the meek of the earth…

Rewards of the Meek: Peace, Salvation, Joy, & Rest

Ps 37:11 But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

Ps 149:4 For the Lord takes pleasure in His ppl: He will beautify the meek with salvation.

Is 29: 19 The meek also shall increase their joy in the Lord, and the poor among men shall rejoice in the Holy One of Israel.

Mt 11:29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest for your souls.