We just suffered our second miscarriage. It has been heartbreaking to say the least. I told my husband in the pit of my despair, “I don’t think I’m as strong as God thinks I am.” My husband quickly replied, “He knows us better than we know ourselves.”
I’ve been thinking about God’s name for me. As I’ve mentioned in a previous post, I asked God in 2012 what my new name would be since I knew He’d made me a completely different person, just like Abram/Abraham or Saul/Paul. He led me to Isaiah 29. In that chapter Ariel is brought low to dust and besieged by war and attacks all around. However, in the end God promises a bright future with children. I knew then that was the name God had for me. I was Ariel. After researching it, I discovered that Ariel is the prophetic name for Jerusalem and it means, “Lion of God.” Ever since, I have become partial to references of “lions.”
Proverbs 30:29-30 (NET) There are three things that are magnificent in their step, four things that move about magnificently: a lion, mightiest of the beasts, who does not retreat from anything;
The first magnificent thing listed is a lion, which the Bible calls the mightiest of all beasts. And God says they don’t retreat from anything! Really, God? Are you sure You mean me?
There’s a scene at the end of The Chronicles of Narnia where the little girl, Lucy, says to Aslan: “I wish I were braver.” To which, Aslan (a lion Himself) replies, “If you were any braver, you’d be a lioness!” That touched my heart and reminded me of the way God sees me.
In 2012, I was made Ariel, brought so low I spoke from the dust, but God saw me and took pity. He redeemed me and promised me a future full of children and a restored marriage. But greater than these, He showed me a future filled with His praises, His miracles, His glory!!! In these 5.5 years, we’ve experienced sorrow and loss, and I can’t explain the whys. But, we’ve also experienced great joy and seen miracles with our own eyes. Maybe that’s the strength of the lion: to choose to praise in the midst of the storms.
Nehemiah 8:10b (NET) Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”
Job 5:18 (The Children’s Bible) For he causes pain but to comfort, And wounds, that his hands may heal.”